hello. Labels: my say
first of all, i'd like to apologise fo not updating last week! somehow i couldn't log in to blogger. ughs.
okk, last week was best! Went to Jurong Point with Mum, Aliff & Haady on Saturday to celebrate Haady's 8th birthday! We went to watch Night @ The Museum. Then, had a little shopping there.. After the movie, Mum and my brothers went home. I stayed at JP cause Akeem was meeting me there! Then, around 20minutes aft mum went off, Akeem called. Met up with him and had some famous amos! SEDAPPS!
Okk, the best part about last week was what tau! Mdm Cheng, my 52-years-old Math teacher left her handbag in her previous class.. She blamed MY class when she realised her handbag was missing. She went CRAZY! "WHERE'S MY HANDBAG!? WHO TOOK MY HANDBAG?! THIS IS NOT FUNNY!!" haha. It was really funny! The whole class had no idea where her handbag was! Then she went and lodge a complain to the DM. Mr Chua came up to class with a cane! WHOA! macam konon scary uh. -_-"
Then, Mdm Cheng went up to her previous class and found her handbag there.. She came back to my class and apologise! WHAA!! The DM was scolding us like as if we just killed his mum liddat! But when Mdm Cheng came back in a bubble of apology, Mr Chua went speechless and apologised to the class and walked out. Mdm Cheng was so embarrased! She felt she owe the class ALOT. At first, she wanted to give ALL 40 OF US movie treat! waa, that'll be about $400 seh! Fortunately for her, we told her that a pizza treat after our Math Group Study on Thursday would be nice. She reluctantly agreed! Thus, she bought the whole class 3 files. haha!! Alhamdulillah.
MORAL OF THE STORY : Never assume! ((:
Lets forward to what happened yesterday!
SPEAKEASY! yuppety yup yeps. Rauzan's My First Sotrybook is OUT! Get yours!!
Speakeasy went well yesterday. I want Abg Faz to host the show laa! SHEESH!
Before Speakeasy, I met up with Fana first, 3.30pm at Jurong East.
Went to City Hall, got ourselves Hot Chocolate! SEDAPSS! Thanks darliing long. =))
Then, after walking around Raffles City, we went to Marina Square and talk talk talk. We had alot to talk about! Didnt meet up fo 2 fucking long weeks tau! Fana is ATTACHED!! So happy fo her. You know what to do aite girl. I'm always around. Ouh, and btw.. Sorry for the disrespectful comment i said after speakeasy when you were on the phone with him! =S
Anyway, after walking around.. We met Fatal & his friend, Blaze at City Hall CS. Went to Dhoby Gaut to makan! And.. Fana actually went "lets go Bukit Panjang!" - she meant Plaza Singapura. All the way me and Fatal was disturbing her about that. Haha! We ate at Kopitiam, Yong Tau Fu! Sedapss laa. Then, after eating it was 6.30pm! ALAMAK! Late already!
To make matters worst, it was RAINING laa. So, we had to run in the rain. Hair got all messed up. >=(
When we reached, were just on time. (((:
Then, after the show.. waited fo Akeem to talk some things with afew other people before following DSC go makan at LJS, the usual routine after Speakeasy every month. After makan ,we went home.
Akeem sent me sampai Lakeside MRT paltform. It was 11.30pm ardy so, I waited at the station platform with Akeem till his train arrived. 20 minutes! cause we missed the first train, the second train wasn't fo passenger service. the third one took my Akeem away! While waiting, I really love the moment. Nothing special really happened and tho the feeling wasn't all alright. I can say I loved it still. =]]
Well, actually.. Now, I'm in my school uniform on a SUNDAY! haha. I just got back from collecting my edusave scholarship from Boon Lay CC. Well, I gotta change now. I have to meet my brother at his camp to pass him some stuffs before gg off to some library to do my DNT Folio. ((:
SHOUTOUT!
DSC, DA FAM, BNF'S!!
Next week, CC's gg to the beach! Tag along if you could. We have someone's birthday to celebrate. I betcha know exactly what I mean. ((:
love you guys.
love,
; nadiah ♥
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hello. Labels: my love life
here's another post. yesterday met up with Amir at 2.10pm at Woodlands. Went to Orchard and then we went to Paragon, he wanted to go to the toilet. When we walked out of paragon, i somehow got a flashback of me and rafiq seating there waiting fo my brother and his ex girlfriend. ourh gosh.. arh, wadever laa. we walked to Somerset and Amir brought me to some place at town. It was cool la! Then at that place, we were resting at some steps uh.. talking talking when suddenly this RED SOMETHING LIKE BIRD SHIT fell directly one step above the step i was seating at. It splashed on my jeans, my tee, my arm! GAWDD! YUCK! DISGUSTING! After that happened, I washed my arm, and it was like henna tau! GARWD! Immedietly, we went off to Centrepoint toilet where another flashback occured. Bootscrunk FCC. Last 2 years, 2005.. I remember gg down Centrepoint every weekend fo our performance. Best la.. I miss those times laa..
Okok. Then after gg to the toilet, we walked to Plaza Singapura to eat at BK. Done eating, we walked to Esplanade and rest there fo about 30 minutes or so, doing nothing .. Well, i don't know bout him but I was just thinking about what the hell i was doing la. Then someone from the DSC people called Amir's hp. Asked to come down to YP. So, we did.
Suprisingly, I met Fana there! WHEE!! happy seh! Akeem, Ejat, Tsun, Doink, Farz, Redha, VP, Itik, Izza, etc.. was there. We sat the the magic cricle then went to the kopitiam, to makan! After makan, the group went to check out Mathilda's House. It was DARK !!!!!!!!!!! SIBIS! I was scared sak! I held on the Amir's hand like fucking tight. And when a few entered the house, I was one of the other few who stayed outside. Then, Baby G scared me from the back. Cibai sak. I was scared till I suddenly felt like pee-ing sak! Then when we finally walked out of the place, I went to the toilet at YP.. Whoa, best seh. hehe.
Then we chilled at YP till 10pm. Went home, Amir sent me.. and my mum met him. Cz she was with one of her godsons under the block and she saw Amir sending me back.. After that, I got hell from mum. She went like, "WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU AND AKEEM?!"
*smacks head* My mum actually likes Akeem like ALOT! She was giving me a hell of lecture when she found out that me and Akeem actually broke up 3 months ago.. And the lecture became more of a hell when she got to know I was attached to Amir! *smacks head -dis time real hard*
Oh my.. I don't know what to do and how to react. I called Akeem yesterday and told him. Gosh. This is why I sometimes I just don't wanna be attached. -_-"
I'm a heartbreaker. No doubt...
LOVE
; nadiah ♥
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hello. Labels: school
wheets! first day of school was gerek la!!
woke up to an early rush tho.. got up at 6am. Showered and quickly pulled on my school uniform. Groomed myself, make my bed, grabbed my jacket and school bag, took 3 spoons of Nasi Goreng fo breakfast and nitro to Lakeside MRT. While walking, i realised one of my buttons on my shirt is unbuttoned bcz the opening wasnt cut. Lucky me, there was a chinese funeral under a block.. I approached and asked fo a scissors. If i spent another 2 minutes there, i'd miss my train! So, i kanchong² and when the hole was there, I continued to nitro my way to the station. Unfortunately, i did miss my 6.45am train. SHIT! I took the 6.50am train, reached C'wlth at 7.05am. Ibrahim, Iyah, Sya, Irah was waiting fo me ardy. Gosh, the station was FULL seh! Clementi Town Secondary moved to the school opposite mine. Ramai la orang.. So, when I arrived.. the group walked to school.. Was late actually! The side gate was suppose to be close at 7.10am but when we reached school at 7.18am, it was still open. COOLIO! I got away. FUYH!
Assb was like usual.. Finally got that spot on the parade sq i've always wanted to be seated at! Haha. There was an attire and groom check. My skirt was warned. Socks were short. So what. I'm the one wearing those clothes. Why wud I want to dress like a decent school girl! So not preppy!
After the check, went to the classrooms. I stay on the same level as last year, Level 5! Pagi² da bersenam! HEES.
I'm seated at the ultra back of the class, furthest from the door. Whao, coolio. Haha. Got to know my teachers, some new faces.. My class has 40 people! Last year was half seh! 18 poeple. And I was the only malay girl among the other 3. One who never attends school.. and the other who seems like as if she doesnt exsist. So pendiam seh! haha.
Was absent on the second and third day because of sore eyes. Have an MC to cover this 2 days. Gossh. Must have missed alot.. Tomorrow, MATH TEST and i don't know a single thing seh. Sheesh. But i'm gg to check out www.lead.com.sg later. haha. RAJIN KAN! LOL.
Heard the form teacher, Ms Leong appointed me as the Treasurer. OH PLEASE NO !!! gossh.
I stressness ardy last year being vice chairperson. I don't wanna be associated with anything near the class commitee. Sheesh.
Well, i guess I should tell Leong that tomorrow!
LOVE
; nadiah ♥
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Friday, January 05, 2007
hello. ok. i don't have a caption fo this one. HEHEE. here is something cool i wanna share with you people... ok.. done. im off to bed. =) LOVE Labels: pics picslets let the pictures do the talking...
ok. thats me, SORE EYES !! 
thats Haady Ashsir eating Ben & Jerry's Ice Cream!
this is Aliff Sharil.. he finished last. =D
this is YOUR'S TRULY ... MY FIRST TIME WEARING A BLUE TOP! :D
after Ben&Jerry's, i ajak my 2 lil brothers outside Vivo.. they played the fountain. got wet duh. =D BTW, i got Aliff that top he's wearing! FILA BABY! wheets.
all thanks to mum's new phone..
YAY! greenme. *that eyebrow msn emoticon*
; nadiah.
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hello. Labels: my say
ok. 2007; so its a brand new year fo everyone. i know its a week late but wadever, i can only update on weekends wad! hmpft.
guess what, for the first time in my 15 years, im having sore eyes! ON BOTH EYES!!!! hahaha. happy but not really uhs. =)
okk, lets blog about HipHopAganda. To those who didnt make it, you're a bitch/dickhead as what Amir will say. Even tho the whole event didnt go as planned, it was a blast! CC's first performance was best. We performed "Irreplaceable" & an original track, which we featured Rauzan on the bridge and chorus, "Feel It (Just Breathe)" . It was all good. Enjoyed myself big time. I loved what I was in. DAMYN! i was looking fly. :DD haha.
the whole thing was great. thanks to those who came and supported CC on our first performance. =D
Anyway, Crimson Coalition is now known as "CREAMZONS" =)
if you read my previous post, i wrote to Amir, "tell me ur love drug".
he did. and its me. =D wheets. uh huhs.
amazingly, he pulled me out from the mess i was in with 'that-someone's-boyfriend' and now im attached to Amir! wheets.
you guys didnt see this one coming did you? neither did i. seriously.
well, when i met him the first time at Woodlands RC, i asked Lynn who he was la.. i had no freaking idea i was his love drug. so then, as time pass.. he read my blog and he stapled sense to my dead unfunctioning brain about 'that-someone's-boyfriend' and somehow now i am in a relationship with him. my feelings for him is not as truckloads but i trust it'll grow and bloom with time. ((((: (now back to the countdown)
when 2007 first ticks it's second, i was standing alone by the stage where the sound system was. that was where Amir was on duty that day. He was the event manager there.. I stood there alone, thinking what i was doing. Everyone was being hype and crazy with huge big wide smiles on their faces. I beamed with delight to see so much happiness but it didnt stay fo long because i realised immedietly that behind those smiles, everyone has something to cry a river for.. Then, I made my way to the other side of the stage to where Fana was. She was the first I gave my wishing to and a hug. Then, I went out to the crowd and pulled Swayza back stage. That was when the SheerzSisters somehow reunited. We hugged and I tell you the feeling of LOVE was undescribeable. It was simply amazing. Tears were treckling down my cheeks. I couldn't believe it. How can so much good things be happening on one day?
I got attached to Amir. Swayza, Me & Fana back once again.
GOSSH! Its a great headstart for me to 2007!
During the dance party.. Creamz were grinding with each other. GOSSH! Fatal was hawts! *smacks head*
Then, I pumped and crunked with Tasha, Syasya, Fana, Swayza, Tasha's sister whom I do not know her name but has been very irritating to me. haha. My arse and my thighs hurts like hell the next day.
After the whole event, I chill out at RC with Afiq, Amir, Fana, Syasya, Tasha, Feeqah, Tasha's sister whom I do not know her name but has been very irritating to me, Redha, bla bla bla...
We chilled till 6am. Fana took the MRT.. I took 187 home.. Amir sent me. Thanks darls. =))
Reached home, took a quick shower and had my rest. Then the next morning, wen i came online.. Feekee asked me to drop down to town. But no, I was too tired to go anywhere! I stayed home and watched VCDs after DVDs instead. I really had a great headstart to this new year!
Though my latest wish, to get on with 'that-someone's-boyfriend' didnt come true... At least now I have my own boyfey who I know he loves me and only me. I'm not sharing this love. & i feel superb about it.=P
Ok. This post is getting too long. I'll blog about first day of school tomorrow morning before i go off to meet Amir. You people have a great year ahead.
Dy, well.. im still calling you this tho im attached to Amir. Whatever makes you think i'll forget about you even after how much hell you've put me through? it was worthwhile. as i said, you're much precious than time. i said i'll wait. but what you told Faris and how you reacted to me when I talked to you crushed every single hope I had. and when you didnt show up on countdown, you dont know how dissapointed i was. you are never there when i need you. i had all the time in the world fo you but you never could spare a minute for me... so i fucking move on.
LOVE
; nadiah .
p.S : ASYRAF CALLED ME BACK !
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Saturday, December 30, 2006
hello. Labels: my say
Speakeasy was "OHKAY". There was better Speakeasy(s). Haha! I think its because some people weren't there. But, I enjoyed myself! Got to meet Albert, who looks great with his NS haircut! Richard, who looks super hot with that new head! Alyph, who is just cute with the tiny hair stands. *chuckles* Not forgetting Akeem, he's botak! wheets. haha. He looks better with short hair. No doubt. Got to meet a few MYSPACERS. Juliet, Mirah, Nadia, Wizzie, etc..
Well, before Speakeasy.. Sheerz went to Kranji This Fashion to buy my coat for tomorrow's performance. Yuppety. Ok, i love the coat. Thanks Fana! <33.
Do come for the event wokeys. Its the last day of 2006.
2006, its been a rollercoaster ride for me. 2006 filled me with lots of first experience, heartfelt changes, reality smacks, dreams wrench & all those shit.
Looking foward to 09th July 2007. I don't wanna live fifteen. Something terrible happened on my fifteenth birthday and I hate my fifteenth year of living. Just wanna get thru this. =S
I'm sorry about what happened mum. I love you.
Aniwae, my 2006. Started the year off with my cool bunch of Hommies. Samsir, Wan, Fate, Syahinul, Ein, Shida, Isnaidi, Achik, Chips, Haikal, Haiqal, Peaz, Abang, all my hommies. I miss you great bunch la! Me & Wan won the foam party dance competition. Got ourselves $50 vouchers. Coolioness. *wowo*
Then we had a great slumber nite...
School .. 2006, 313, Queensway Secondary.. GREAT BUNCH. ((:
Miss Celine Tan & Miss Sheryl Kaur, you both are my best love. GOSSH. being stuck as the only malay girl in a small class of 18 people.. with only 3 girls; including me. It was hella-fun! WHEETS. the tears you boys made me cry, the pain you guys made me endure, the torture you boys never stop pranking me. sure im gg to miss it. haha. love you guys laaaa. one thing im glad about is that QQ is not gg to be my classmate fo next year. OUH HELL! she is a reason i hate gg to school. haha.
now, shes off. its all good.
Crimson Coalition... you both painted my whole life this year. Thanks alot guys. Eversince Speakeasy February, where Fatal and I first met.. We clingged on real tight and now, what do you know... we're performing together tomorrow. Celebrating the new year together. As a crew. As one family. Three Teenagers, Three Hearts, One Love. ♥
Brand New Feeling. WHEEEETS! my BIGGEST news fo 2006! YEAH! Words cudnt be put together to explain my happiness when Rauzan broke this news to us. I still remember that I was effing mad at my brother but it was amazing how I kept my cool. Having Akeem there at that moment was a real pleasure too. Thanks.
Gossh, I can't wait for 2007. N Level, Crimson Coalition, Boys(always the best part), School, Problems, Tears, Heartbreaks, Fights, Monthly Check Ups, Hate, Jealousy, Love.. I wonder what's in store for me in the year to come. Worst comes, Death. We never know. But if it does come for me.. Let ya'll noe, I LOVE YOU.
btw Fana, if you're reading this.. i've got a lil something fo you in 2007. Lets pray we live till then.
To all those who played a part in making me a better person. Those who stood by me, allowed me to step on them to get up to the next level, those who showed me the right way.. Won't mention names, you know who you are. I thank you sincerely from the bottom of my heart. No matter what I've said in a song, in an email, wadever, im sorry. Without all this downfall we have had, I would never learn anything. You guys, whom I hate, I despise, I crictisize have actually been the ones who made me to who i am. Since I don't like you, I mould myself into someone better. And to those I have always loved, you guys helped me make thru the fights. and for that, i love you all. Forgive me if i've ever hurt you in any thinkable/nonthinkable way. hehhe.
Sincere apologies & appreciations from Sara Nadiah to all who have played a part in my life journey through 2006. Take Care & Keep In Touch.
Amir, if you can pull me out of the mess I'm in. I'm so grateful! WHEE! you still havent told me that love drug girl. ;)
Dy, you've made my past month a living love hell. Thanks. Its better if I leave you to her. Cause its so effing obvious that you will never let her go. Keep in touch la..
Just holla and tell me when I can end my waits..
LOVE
; nadiah.
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Friday, December 29, 2006
hello. Labels: random
ok guess wad. i want a drug named after me! whee.
amir is my new friend!
HELLO AMIR !! =)))))
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hello. Labels: pics pics
im just so excited because i have new pics. haha. here's the pics..+grlfey+..(6).jpg)
bcz i think im cool like that.+grlfey+..(19).jpg)
meet my new friend, "MR RED PETALS". he died yesterday. my little brother poke him with a needle and he burst. )))))':
i was trying to hide from reality.. i failed tho..jpg)
was just having fun with my table lamp and handphone camera. =)) PUTIH MELEPAK!
this is what happens when i think about HIM..
feeling vogue gituh.
my best BNF pose shot.
my BULLDOG face. as told by FANA. ((=
shafiee is just sitting down. i am talking to fana on bakyah's hp. bakyah is looking at me using her hp. eka is the fool who snapped this pic on my demand. =) ok the end.
NO NOT THE END YET!+messd+up.jpg)
to me, messed up hair is cool. at times.
yes, my whole brand new feeling fo.
i find SG POLY toilet very clean.. so i snapped a pic to let ya'll see.
oops. hehee. sorry!
LOVE
;nadiah.
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hello.
im nervous! haha. about? Hip Hop Aganda la denggs! haha.
im thinking how will CC do on their first performance. gossh. cant wait!!
those who still havent got invites, do holla. i still have some. (((((:
ok, the next thing thats got me all excited is, SCHOOL IS REOPENING!
yeah! REAL SOON! Okayye. Peeps from school! Time table is up at the school's website. (http://www.queensway.sch.edu.sg) Check up on E-Zine. ((: BRING THE BOOKS ON WEDNESDAY! I'm glad to know that my PE lessons are on Monday & Tuesday. wheets! hehee. got my school shoes, bags & books already. school uniform.. only got the blouse. NO SKIRT !!!! haha. guess im gg to get into trouble on the first day. last year, i was late. this year, short skirt. gossh. Nadiah Nadiah.. its time fo a change. I AM NOT GG TO BE THE CLASS CHAIRPERSON OR VICE CHAIRPERSON fo that matter. NO NO NO. SERIK TAU. sheesh. well, cant wait to see peeps from school. miss you guys. ((((:
have anyone of you ever like broke up with someone who you know really loved you but you don't feel the same and you don't want to live a lie so you just break up with him but then when you move on and love someone else who is someone elses boyfriend and you start missing that ex boyfriend of yours. well, i miss akeem. i don't know why. but i miss him. but, no. im not gg back together. it just don't feel right you see. to think about the times we had and the way he made me laugh when times were rough, it was something nice to think about. is that what love is all about? i don't know. im confused. you see, i don't feel the way i do to akeem like the way i feel for this someone elses's bf. its 2 whole different feelings. but on the other hand, life is much a breeze with one of them. and it hurts to know who. gossh. i really need daily reality dosage. just so you guys know, im still waiting fo him. and last two days was his first month with his girlfriend. and last two days was my first day gg to town in alone on a rainy day. was quite an experience. ((:
ok, im in love with Lost Prophets & Plain White T's Music ok? hehee.
Lily Allen is driving me nuts! haha. ok, that was fucking random. -_-`
btw, Queenswayans.. in class 412 fo year 2007. Here's the time table for the first day of school..
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Saturday, December 23, 2006
Labels: crew
HEYHO!
Crimson Coalition is performing at 8pm.
You'll need free invites fo this. First come first serve basis.
Want your invites? Drop me an email, baby_serenade@hotmail.com
I will be at Somerset Youth Park on Thursday, 28th Dec from 1pm-3pm giving out the invites.
LOVE
:nadiah♥
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hello.
oh well. here's the loong awaited post.
you guys must be really eager to know how things are gg on rite! well, too bad im not gg to post anything more about me and him. the reason is simple. BLOGHOPPERS are tagging me and telling me WHAT TO DO. ouh please. its not that i don't appreciate you people coming over but don't act like you know me when you don't really do. ((((:
to those who knows me and have been asking me to cheer up and all, dun worry aites. i'll be ok! the last info i can give you guys is even tho i had a terrible huge arguement with him last 2 days, i still love him alot and am still waiting. patience goes a long way. :)
okok, lets talk about the HAPPY CHEERFUL part of my life can? haha. enough of you guys seeing the emo side of me. BLAHS XP! Faris is in KL. Having his shoppings done there. haha. better bring back stuffs fo me & fana! OR ELSE!! >=)
ok, back on Wednesday, 20th Dec 2006 I went camwhoring with my primary schoolmates and this one guy, PEAH i call him! haha. He's a fren of Eka.
it was just the 4 of us. ME, BAKII, EKA & PEAH. THE HYPERRANDOMSS! HAHA. <33 em lots.
had great fun la denggs! went to city hall and started out punks der. wheets. had a blast cant deny that. sorry guys, but i cant make it this Monday. I'm really tight on shecdule you see.. having my performance on 31st Dec, need to practice fo this. and school is reopening soon! im so excited. heess.
here's some crazy pics of us laa..
it was on this day too that we went home with flour dust in our clothes. haha. it was bakii's bdae celebration. haha. she was wearing black and she went home in 'faded' jeans and tees. ahah. >=) i ended up the CLEANEST. of cz. muahahaha.
okok, after that day.. i went out with Dee & Mash. Went to Marina Sq to watch Night At The Museum! Had a great laugh throughout the show! QUIET !!!!!!!! MY DAMDAM WANTS TO TALK. hahah! funny la seh! we had a few pics taken oso but Dee havent send them to me.. -_-" wasnt tt kecoh la... haha.
okok, after this.. something terrible happened to me. i won't tell you guys. cause random ppl will start their random spits on my blog acting like as is they're in my shoes and telling me what to do when in the first place they don't even know how many siblings i have! sheesh!
NOW I NEED THE RANDOM HELPS LA..
Have anyone done a school project on CROP CIRCLES before? drop me some infomations on ems aites. im confused. they're sources saying its man-made, some sources says its an overnite miracle. help me out here! i have less than a week to do this thing! and i hafta make a script out of this informations and put it together as a comic strip. lecehness tau mdm roslina. haha. =P
ok, talking bout project.. me and Baim are working together on the project. we met up on Monday, 18th Dec and we went to Queenstown Lib.. after gathering enough info, we started camwhoring using Baim's mp5! whee! but the pics kinda blurr la.. in less than 2hours, the cam was filled with more than 50pics of MY FACE! ahah. here are some of em...
i should post those and those only. haha. ok, i wanna sleep nows.
dy, im really sorry about what happened that day. let you noe something, if anything like that happens again(God Forbid) please remember that I will always love you... im missing you lots. meet me soon wokey darlss. *huggiessmooches*
LOVE
:nadiah
xo
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Sunday, December 17, 2006
hello. Labels: my love life
guess what. this whole week, i've been crying every morning when i wake up.
since my bed is beside the window, i wake up looking up to the brances and leaves covering the blue sky and thick fluffy white clouds. to see a a new day to live with a fact that he is still not mine, i pull under the covers and start crying to myself.
usually, i grab my alarm clock to see what time i woke up. but this whole week, the routine has changed. -_-" goshh. this is affecting me real bad.
at times, i'll talk to myself.. i'll feel better if i move on. i suppose so. but i don't wanna move on.
"WHERE EVER YOU GO, WHATEVER YOU DO,
I WILL BE RIGHT HERE WAITING FO YOU,
WHATEVER IT TAKES, OR HOW MY HEART BREAKS,
I WILL BE RIGHT HERE WAITING FO YOU.."
i keep singing that bar to myself. sometimes tears accompany me along the melody.
why am i doing this?
he's got his own problems that he doesn't tell me. he's got a gf.
what am i doing? i'm loving him. but loving him is creating another whole problem to him. shud i go with the saying, "if you love him, let him go. if you're meant to be, one fine day, you'll meet again" or should i just hold on to the tiniest hope i have?
oh gosh, as complicating as it gets. nothing hurts more than this. i don't know what to do. i keep looking out the window. i keep hiding under the covers. i keep talking to myself. i keep doing things i know i am not suppose to. this whole thing is really affecting me badly.
it gets worst when i viewed his myspace pics and found a new pic of him and her. the caption on it welled tears in my eyes.
i love him. he loves her. she loves him.
now, where do i stand? is there anybody out there who can predict what will happen soon? is there anybody who can take away this pain and make my life a living peace?
i guess no. this is life and i've gotta face it. i've put myself in this situation, its only fair i go through it.
i've said i'll wait fo him. i will.
yes, if he can do this to his gf, he can do this to me too. but there is nothing that you think you've consider that i have not.
its not fair. i made things unfair. so, this is what i get.
gosh. seriously, this really is heartbreaking. i've been letting out heavy sighs all day long. no joke.
dy, if you're happy with her.. do tell me. if being with her makes you happy. den be it. u've got problems of ur own, i don't wanna add to it..
but, i'll still be waiting fo you. only you.
i love you tubs and buckets. *huggiessmooches*
LOVE
`nadiah
xo
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