hello. Labels: my love life
here's another post. yesterday met up with Amir at 2.10pm at Woodlands. Went to Orchard and then we went to Paragon, he wanted to go to the toilet. When we walked out of paragon, i somehow got a flashback of me and rafiq seating there waiting fo my brother and his ex girlfriend. ourh gosh.. arh, wadever laa. we walked to Somerset and Amir brought me to some place at town. It was cool la! Then at that place, we were resting at some steps uh.. talking talking when suddenly this RED SOMETHING LIKE BIRD SHIT fell directly one step above the step i was seating at. It splashed on my jeans, my tee, my arm! GAWDD! YUCK! DISGUSTING! After that happened, I washed my arm, and it was like henna tau! GARWD! Immedietly, we went off to Centrepoint toilet where another flashback occured. Bootscrunk FCC. Last 2 years, 2005.. I remember gg down Centrepoint every weekend fo our performance. Best la.. I miss those times laa..
Okok. Then after gg to the toilet, we walked to Plaza Singapura to eat at BK. Done eating, we walked to Esplanade and rest there fo about 30 minutes or so, doing nothing .. Well, i don't know bout him but I was just thinking about what the hell i was doing la. Then someone from the DSC people called Amir's hp. Asked to come down to YP. So, we did.
Suprisingly, I met Fana there! WHEE!! happy seh! Akeem, Ejat, Tsun, Doink, Farz, Redha, VP, Itik, Izza, etc.. was there. We sat the the magic cricle then went to the kopitiam, to makan! After makan, the group went to check out Mathilda's House. It was DARK !!!!!!!!!!! SIBIS! I was scared sak! I held on the Amir's hand like fucking tight. And when a few entered the house, I was one of the other few who stayed outside. Then, Baby G scared me from the back. Cibai sak. I was scared till I suddenly felt like pee-ing sak! Then when we finally walked out of the place, I went to the toilet at YP.. Whoa, best seh. hehe.
Then we chilled at YP till 10pm. Went home, Amir sent me.. and my mum met him. Cz she was with one of her godsons under the block and she saw Amir sending me back.. After that, I got hell from mum. She went like, "WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU AND AKEEM?!"
*smacks head* My mum actually likes Akeem like ALOT! She was giving me a hell of lecture when she found out that me and Akeem actually broke up 3 months ago.. And the lecture became more of a hell when she got to know I was attached to Amir! *smacks head -dis time real hard*
Oh my.. I don't know what to do and how to react. I called Akeem yesterday and told him. Gosh. This is why I sometimes I just don't wanna be attached. -_-"
I'm a heartbreaker. No doubt...
LOVE
; nadiah ♥
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hello. Labels: my love life
guess what. this whole week, i've been crying every morning when i wake up.
since my bed is beside the window, i wake up looking up to the brances and leaves covering the blue sky and thick fluffy white clouds. to see a a new day to live with a fact that he is still not mine, i pull under the covers and start crying to myself.
usually, i grab my alarm clock to see what time i woke up. but this whole week, the routine has changed. -_-" goshh. this is affecting me real bad.
at times, i'll talk to myself.. i'll feel better if i move on. i suppose so. but i don't wanna move on.
"WHERE EVER YOU GO, WHATEVER YOU DO,
I WILL BE RIGHT HERE WAITING FO YOU,
WHATEVER IT TAKES, OR HOW MY HEART BREAKS,
I WILL BE RIGHT HERE WAITING FO YOU.."
i keep singing that bar to myself. sometimes tears accompany me along the melody.
why am i doing this?
he's got his own problems that he doesn't tell me. he's got a gf.
what am i doing? i'm loving him. but loving him is creating another whole problem to him. shud i go with the saying, "if you love him, let him go. if you're meant to be, one fine day, you'll meet again" or should i just hold on to the tiniest hope i have?
oh gosh, as complicating as it gets. nothing hurts more than this. i don't know what to do. i keep looking out the window. i keep hiding under the covers. i keep talking to myself. i keep doing things i know i am not suppose to. this whole thing is really affecting me badly.
it gets worst when i viewed his myspace pics and found a new pic of him and her. the caption on it welled tears in my eyes.
i love him. he loves her. she loves him.
now, where do i stand? is there anybody out there who can predict what will happen soon? is there anybody who can take away this pain and make my life a living peace?
i guess no. this is life and i've gotta face it. i've put myself in this situation, its only fair i go through it.
i've said i'll wait fo him. i will.
yes, if he can do this to his gf, he can do this to me too. but there is nothing that you think you've consider that i have not.
its not fair. i made things unfair. so, this is what i get.
gosh. seriously, this really is heartbreaking. i've been letting out heavy sighs all day long. no joke.
dy, if you're happy with her.. do tell me. if being with her makes you happy. den be it. u've got problems of ur own, i don't wanna add to it..
but, i'll still be waiting fo you. only you.
i love you tubs and buckets. *huggiessmooches*
LOVE
`nadiah
xo
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Tuesday, December 12, 2006
hello. Labels: my love life
ok, i noe i havent been updating last week. i cudnt log in using my home pc! sheesh. to know a what i was suppose to blog about, head on to my MYPSACE BLOG !! (=
okok, to those who read and know wads gg on.. u'll understand this post. to those who doesn't know whats gg on and is lazy to read my MYSPACE BLOG, then i suggest you don't ask me anything on the tagboard. haha. irritating sia.
last two days, he came over my crib. =))) haha.
we watched Saw 3 in my brother's room. then, my brother went out to meet his friend over at Yishun and i was left at home with HIM*. my two lil brothers went down to buy some candies. when they came up, they was watching Nick TV in the living room. So i was alone with HIM* in my brother's room. >:)
hah. eh! im still a virgin ok! hmpft.
as you know, he's attached. but i never did ask him about his gf. i dont bother. sheesh. wadda bitch i am..
aniwae, its kinda hard to be in this situation y'noe. i could have avoided him when we first met and all.. i cud have ignored his msgs. but i didnt. AKU BOLEH LAYAN LAGI! *smacks head*
back to the story..
in the end, we didnt watch the movie. we ended up kissing under the blanket. no, no. nothing was under the garments. HAHAH!!
its not our last, infact, it was our first.
after this happened, i just don't wanna loose him. he's all i want.
i have never ever fall fo someone who is attached. i have never kissed someone's bf. i have never accepted a guy with studs.
gawd. love is not blind, love doesn't mind.
at first, i didnt wanna confess that i love him. but Swayza said, if he, the one who is attached is able to say it to me.. why can't i?
haiish.
dy, you know i'll be right here waiting for you. its you that i want. you complete my puzzle. you give me my world.
yes, i have my dearest friends to lean on. but this feeling is just fo you. i'll wait fo you dy... even tho some people says its a waste of time.. i don't care cause you're just much more precious than time.
i carved ur name in my heart. you're an addiction i cannot deny.. *huggiexz ; smoochiess kisses *
LOVE
`serenade
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