hello. Labels: my say
Speakeasy was "OHKAY". There was better Speakeasy(s). Haha! I think its because some people weren't there. But, I enjoyed myself! Got to meet Albert, who looks great with his NS haircut! Richard, who looks super hot with that new head! Alyph, who is just cute with the tiny hair stands. *chuckles* Not forgetting Akeem, he's botak! wheets. haha. He looks better with short hair. No doubt. Got to meet a few MYSPACERS. Juliet, Mirah, Nadia, Wizzie, etc..
Well, before Speakeasy.. Sheerz went to Kranji This Fashion to buy my coat for tomorrow's performance. Yuppety. Ok, i love the coat. Thanks Fana! <33.
Do come for the event wokeys. Its the last day of 2006.
2006, its been a rollercoaster ride for me. 2006 filled me with lots of first experience, heartfelt changes, reality smacks, dreams wrench & all those shit.
Looking foward to 09th July 2007. I don't wanna live fifteen. Something terrible happened on my fifteenth birthday and I hate my fifteenth year of living. Just wanna get thru this. =S
I'm sorry about what happened mum. I love you.
Aniwae, my 2006. Started the year off with my cool bunch of Hommies. Samsir, Wan, Fate, Syahinul, Ein, Shida, Isnaidi, Achik, Chips, Haikal, Haiqal, Peaz, Abang, all my hommies. I miss you great bunch la! Me & Wan won the foam party dance competition. Got ourselves $50 vouchers. Coolioness. *wowo*
Then we had a great slumber nite...
School .. 2006, 313, Queensway Secondary.. GREAT BUNCH. ((:
Miss Celine Tan & Miss Sheryl Kaur, you both are my best love. GOSSH. being stuck as the only malay girl in a small class of 18 people.. with only 3 girls; including me. It was hella-fun! WHEETS. the tears you boys made me cry, the pain you guys made me endure, the torture you boys never stop pranking me. sure im gg to miss it. haha. love you guys laaaa. one thing im glad about is that QQ is not gg to be my classmate fo next year. OUH HELL! she is a reason i hate gg to school. haha.
now, shes off. its all good.
Crimson Coalition... you both painted my whole life this year. Thanks alot guys. Eversince Speakeasy February, where Fatal and I first met.. We clingged on real tight and now, what do you know... we're performing together tomorrow. Celebrating the new year together. As a crew. As one family. Three Teenagers, Three Hearts, One Love. ♥
Brand New Feeling. WHEEEETS! my BIGGEST news fo 2006! YEAH! Words cudnt be put together to explain my happiness when Rauzan broke this news to us. I still remember that I was effing mad at my brother but it was amazing how I kept my cool. Having Akeem there at that moment was a real pleasure too. Thanks.
Gossh, I can't wait for 2007. N Level, Crimson Coalition, Boys(always the best part), School, Problems, Tears, Heartbreaks, Fights, Monthly Check Ups, Hate, Jealousy, Love.. I wonder what's in store for me in the year to come. Worst comes, Death. We never know. But if it does come for me.. Let ya'll noe, I LOVE YOU.
btw Fana, if you're reading this.. i've got a lil something fo you in 2007. Lets pray we live till then.
To all those who played a part in making me a better person. Those who stood by me, allowed me to step on them to get up to the next level, those who showed me the right way.. Won't mention names, you know who you are. I thank you sincerely from the bottom of my heart. No matter what I've said in a song, in an email, wadever, im sorry. Without all this downfall we have had, I would never learn anything. You guys, whom I hate, I despise, I crictisize have actually been the ones who made me to who i am. Since I don't like you, I mould myself into someone better. And to those I have always loved, you guys helped me make thru the fights. and for that, i love you all. Forgive me if i've ever hurt you in any thinkable/nonthinkable way. hehhe.
Sincere apologies & appreciations from Sara Nadiah to all who have played a part in my life journey through 2006. Take Care & Keep In Touch.
Amir, if you can pull me out of the mess I'm in. I'm so grateful! WHEE! you still havent told me that love drug girl. ;)
Dy, you've made my past month a living love hell. Thanks. Its better if I leave you to her. Cause its so effing obvious that you will never let her go. Keep in touch la..
Just holla and tell me when I can end my waits..
LOVE
; nadiah.
;
hello. Labels: random
ok guess wad. i want a drug named after me! whee.
amir is my new friend!
HELLO AMIR !! =)))))
;
hello. Labels: pics pics
im just so excited because i have new pics. haha. here's the pics..+grlfey+..(6).jpg)
bcz i think im cool like that.+grlfey+..(19).jpg)
meet my new friend, "MR RED PETALS". he died yesterday. my little brother poke him with a needle and he burst. )))))':
i was trying to hide from reality.. i failed tho..jpg)
was just having fun with my table lamp and handphone camera. =)) PUTIH MELEPAK!
this is what happens when i think about HIM..
feeling vogue gituh.
my best BNF pose shot.
my BULLDOG face. as told by FANA. ((=
shafiee is just sitting down. i am talking to fana on bakyah's hp. bakyah is looking at me using her hp. eka is the fool who snapped this pic on my demand. =) ok the end.
NO NOT THE END YET!+messd+up.jpg)
to me, messed up hair is cool. at times.
yes, my whole brand new feeling fo.
i find SG POLY toilet very clean.. so i snapped a pic to let ya'll see.
oops. hehee. sorry!
LOVE
;nadiah.
;
hello.
im nervous! haha. about? Hip Hop Aganda la denggs! haha.
im thinking how will CC do on their first performance. gossh. cant wait!!
those who still havent got invites, do holla. i still have some. (((((:
ok, the next thing thats got me all excited is, SCHOOL IS REOPENING!
yeah! REAL SOON! Okayye. Peeps from school! Time table is up at the school's website. (http://www.queensway.sch.edu.sg) Check up on E-Zine. ((: BRING THE BOOKS ON WEDNESDAY! I'm glad to know that my PE lessons are on Monday & Tuesday. wheets! hehee. got my school shoes, bags & books already. school uniform.. only got the blouse. NO SKIRT !!!! haha. guess im gg to get into trouble on the first day. last year, i was late. this year, short skirt. gossh. Nadiah Nadiah.. its time fo a change. I AM NOT GG TO BE THE CLASS CHAIRPERSON OR VICE CHAIRPERSON fo that matter. NO NO NO. SERIK TAU. sheesh. well, cant wait to see peeps from school. miss you guys. ((((:
have anyone of you ever like broke up with someone who you know really loved you but you don't feel the same and you don't want to live a lie so you just break up with him but then when you move on and love someone else who is someone elses boyfriend and you start missing that ex boyfriend of yours. well, i miss akeem. i don't know why. but i miss him. but, no. im not gg back together. it just don't feel right you see. to think about the times we had and the way he made me laugh when times were rough, it was something nice to think about. is that what love is all about? i don't know. im confused. you see, i don't feel the way i do to akeem like the way i feel for this someone elses's bf. its 2 whole different feelings. but on the other hand, life is much a breeze with one of them. and it hurts to know who. gossh. i really need daily reality dosage. just so you guys know, im still waiting fo him. and last two days was his first month with his girlfriend. and last two days was my first day gg to town in alone on a rainy day. was quite an experience. ((:
ok, im in love with Lost Prophets & Plain White T's Music ok? hehee.
Lily Allen is driving me nuts! haha. ok, that was fucking random. -_-`
btw, Queenswayans.. in class 412 fo year 2007. Here's the time table for the first day of school..
;
Saturday, December 23, 2006
Labels: crew
HEYHO!
Crimson Coalition is performing at 8pm.
You'll need free invites fo this. First come first serve basis.
Want your invites? Drop me an email, baby_serenade@hotmail.com
I will be at Somerset Youth Park on Thursday, 28th Dec from 1pm-3pm giving out the invites.
LOVE
:nadiah♥
;
hello.
oh well. here's the loong awaited post.
you guys must be really eager to know how things are gg on rite! well, too bad im not gg to post anything more about me and him. the reason is simple. BLOGHOPPERS are tagging me and telling me WHAT TO DO. ouh please. its not that i don't appreciate you people coming over but don't act like you know me when you don't really do. ((((:
to those who knows me and have been asking me to cheer up and all, dun worry aites. i'll be ok! the last info i can give you guys is even tho i had a terrible huge arguement with him last 2 days, i still love him alot and am still waiting. patience goes a long way. :)
okok, lets talk about the HAPPY CHEERFUL part of my life can? haha. enough of you guys seeing the emo side of me. BLAHS XP! Faris is in KL. Having his shoppings done there. haha. better bring back stuffs fo me & fana! OR ELSE!! >=)
ok, back on Wednesday, 20th Dec 2006 I went camwhoring with my primary schoolmates and this one guy, PEAH i call him! haha. He's a fren of Eka.
it was just the 4 of us. ME, BAKII, EKA & PEAH. THE HYPERRANDOMSS! HAHA. <33 em lots.
had great fun la denggs! went to city hall and started out punks der. wheets. had a blast cant deny that. sorry guys, but i cant make it this Monday. I'm really tight on shecdule you see.. having my performance on 31st Dec, need to practice fo this. and school is reopening soon! im so excited. heess.
here's some crazy pics of us laa..
it was on this day too that we went home with flour dust in our clothes. haha. it was bakii's bdae celebration. haha. she was wearing black and she went home in 'faded' jeans and tees. ahah. >=) i ended up the CLEANEST. of cz. muahahaha.
okok, after that day.. i went out with Dee & Mash. Went to Marina Sq to watch Night At The Museum! Had a great laugh throughout the show! QUIET !!!!!!!! MY DAMDAM WANTS TO TALK. hahah! funny la seh! we had a few pics taken oso but Dee havent send them to me.. -_-" wasnt tt kecoh la... haha.
okok, after this.. something terrible happened to me. i won't tell you guys. cause random ppl will start their random spits on my blog acting like as is they're in my shoes and telling me what to do when in the first place they don't even know how many siblings i have! sheesh!
NOW I NEED THE RANDOM HELPS LA..
Have anyone done a school project on CROP CIRCLES before? drop me some infomations on ems aites. im confused. they're sources saying its man-made, some sources says its an overnite miracle. help me out here! i have less than a week to do this thing! and i hafta make a script out of this informations and put it together as a comic strip. lecehness tau mdm roslina. haha. =P
ok, talking bout project.. me and Baim are working together on the project. we met up on Monday, 18th Dec and we went to Queenstown Lib.. after gathering enough info, we started camwhoring using Baim's mp5! whee! but the pics kinda blurr la.. in less than 2hours, the cam was filled with more than 50pics of MY FACE! ahah. here are some of em...
i should post those and those only. haha. ok, i wanna sleep nows.
dy, im really sorry about what happened that day. let you noe something, if anything like that happens again(God Forbid) please remember that I will always love you... im missing you lots. meet me soon wokey darlss. *huggiessmooches*
LOVE
:nadiah
xo
;
Sunday, December 17, 2006
hello. Labels: my love life
guess what. this whole week, i've been crying every morning when i wake up.
since my bed is beside the window, i wake up looking up to the brances and leaves covering the blue sky and thick fluffy white clouds. to see a a new day to live with a fact that he is still not mine, i pull under the covers and start crying to myself.
usually, i grab my alarm clock to see what time i woke up. but this whole week, the routine has changed. -_-" goshh. this is affecting me real bad.
at times, i'll talk to myself.. i'll feel better if i move on. i suppose so. but i don't wanna move on.
"WHERE EVER YOU GO, WHATEVER YOU DO,
I WILL BE RIGHT HERE WAITING FO YOU,
WHATEVER IT TAKES, OR HOW MY HEART BREAKS,
I WILL BE RIGHT HERE WAITING FO YOU.."
i keep singing that bar to myself. sometimes tears accompany me along the melody.
why am i doing this?
he's got his own problems that he doesn't tell me. he's got a gf.
what am i doing? i'm loving him. but loving him is creating another whole problem to him. shud i go with the saying, "if you love him, let him go. if you're meant to be, one fine day, you'll meet again" or should i just hold on to the tiniest hope i have?
oh gosh, as complicating as it gets. nothing hurts more than this. i don't know what to do. i keep looking out the window. i keep hiding under the covers. i keep talking to myself. i keep doing things i know i am not suppose to. this whole thing is really affecting me badly.
it gets worst when i viewed his myspace pics and found a new pic of him and her. the caption on it welled tears in my eyes.
i love him. he loves her. she loves him.
now, where do i stand? is there anybody out there who can predict what will happen soon? is there anybody who can take away this pain and make my life a living peace?
i guess no. this is life and i've gotta face it. i've put myself in this situation, its only fair i go through it.
i've said i'll wait fo him. i will.
yes, if he can do this to his gf, he can do this to me too. but there is nothing that you think you've consider that i have not.
its not fair. i made things unfair. so, this is what i get.
gosh. seriously, this really is heartbreaking. i've been letting out heavy sighs all day long. no joke.
dy, if you're happy with her.. do tell me. if being with her makes you happy. den be it. u've got problems of ur own, i don't wanna add to it..
but, i'll still be waiting fo you. only you.
i love you tubs and buckets. *huggiessmooches*
LOVE
`nadiah
xo
;
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
hello. Labels: my love life
ok, i noe i havent been updating last week. i cudnt log in using my home pc! sheesh. to know a what i was suppose to blog about, head on to my MYPSACE BLOG !! (=
okok, to those who read and know wads gg on.. u'll understand this post. to those who doesn't know whats gg on and is lazy to read my MYSPACE BLOG, then i suggest you don't ask me anything on the tagboard. haha. irritating sia.
last two days, he came over my crib. =))) haha.
we watched Saw 3 in my brother's room. then, my brother went out to meet his friend over at Yishun and i was left at home with HIM*. my two lil brothers went down to buy some candies. when they came up, they was watching Nick TV in the living room. So i was alone with HIM* in my brother's room. >:)
hah. eh! im still a virgin ok! hmpft.
as you know, he's attached. but i never did ask him about his gf. i dont bother. sheesh. wadda bitch i am..
aniwae, its kinda hard to be in this situation y'noe. i could have avoided him when we first met and all.. i cud have ignored his msgs. but i didnt. AKU BOLEH LAYAN LAGI! *smacks head*
back to the story..
in the end, we didnt watch the movie. we ended up kissing under the blanket. no, no. nothing was under the garments. HAHAH!!
its not our last, infact, it was our first.
after this happened, i just don't wanna loose him. he's all i want.
i have never ever fall fo someone who is attached. i have never kissed someone's bf. i have never accepted a guy with studs.
gawd. love is not blind, love doesn't mind.
at first, i didnt wanna confess that i love him. but Swayza said, if he, the one who is attached is able to say it to me.. why can't i?
haiish.
dy, you know i'll be right here waiting for you. its you that i want. you complete my puzzle. you give me my world.
yes, i have my dearest friends to lean on. but this feeling is just fo you. i'll wait fo you dy... even tho some people says its a waste of time.. i don't care cause you're just much more precious than time.
i carved ur name in my heart. you're an addiction i cannot deny.. *huggiexz ; smoochiess kisses *
LOVE
`serenade
;
Saturday, December 02, 2006
hello. Labels: family's and friend's betrayal
tell me, if you are a friend to this pair of cousins. both of them are having an arguement.
you were very close to the both of them.. and then when you guys are having an outing, one of the cousins said not to bring the other along. what would you do? would you not bring? would you bring her along? would you try to make things better? would you like to help resolve the issue? or would you just let it be.. and let it rain on the cousins? tag me, i would like to know.
just as i thought things were fine, i got to know it wasnt all along. you read the post about friends didn't you? you read what i wrote to my cousin, about my cousin, for my cousin.
what happened has happened and i tot we closed that chapter and fucking moved on. but why is this happening all over again? your wishes and prayers to God wanting me not as a family member is never gon come true. in our veins, we have the same blood. hate me, i don't care. you wanna be a bitch? be it upfront.
you're just fucking jealous get it? and whatever i say here, i don't care if our aunts, rents, friends, companion are gon read and comment all about it... do as you want.
i closed this. you opened it and started blabbering me. black listing me. bad mouthing me. if yuo haven't notice, you have taken my bestfriend away! and what more do you want? you wanna make my life miserable? well, get this straight.
if you're trying, den you're a plain fiasco. if you could have taken my bestfriend then i don't know what to say except that she wasn't who i thought she were.
bestfriend stick to each other no matter what, they help to resolve each other's problems.. they are someone who knows something is wrong tho we never tell.
you said only a few words and she had a change of mindset. well, fine.
now, i don't even feel like as if i lost a friend, i lost a cousin. cause you guys never were true peers.
you wanna know what true peers really are? ask around. and give them this situation.. see what others will say. i admit i did the mistake. but i apologised and wanted to move on and tried to make things better.
but YOU, you added salt to the salty water. how the hell you gon make it sweet?!
face it, the fact you're acting this way is you're just plain fucking jealous. yea, im boasting. yea, this is ego.
im over reacting? no, this time im not. its the way i am suppose to react. being betrayed like this? have you ever felt it? in fact, you have never.
you're dance interest? if i didnt forced you to joining Bootscrunk FCC, would you love dancing? if we havent fought about Bab, would you have been close to your abg angkat and then get to know Zahari? would you have? when you and Zahari were fighting and you felt like breaking up, did i just let it be or did i helped and tried to make things between you better? did i not send a msg every first date of each month to wish you both a happy monthsary!? have i not?!
i stopped all this when i got to know you really wanted me out of your life.
i stayed away.
i stopped disturbing you.
i stopped talking about you.
i stopped trying to think about us.
but even giving you what you want, me not being close to you.. you took away my bestfriend, you corrupted ppl's mindset about me..
i cant blame them, you are quite good at persuading and talking fucking craps about me to others. they were stupid to buy them.
but i only have one thing to clarify to these ppl whom SHE has talked to abt me,
WHY DO YOU AGREE WITH WHAT SHE SAID AND TURNED YOUR BACK ON ME WITHOUT EVEN ASKING ME?
no, don't bother apologising. i've forgiven you all. but i will never want you back in my life. the place that was once yours, is taken.
i replaced you. yes, i found someone better than you.
someone i know will stick with me no matter what people will say about me. cause she knows me well and she knows what i will do and what i will not. she knows me the way you NEVER did.
i will never get a cousin to replace you. but hey, having a cousin like you.. its better not having.
just fuck out of my life. talk about me all you want. just fo your info, i won't be spreading my thoughts to others.. whatever i hafta say, i have said it here in my blogpost.
open to EVERYONE EVEN YOU. i don't go behind ppl's back no more and bitch about them aite.
you wanna bitch, bitch upfront!
i can take you on wherever ok. you are nothing, without me. accept that!!
this is ego, this is the truth, this is reality that you kept denying.
learn to face it slut.
;
Friday, December 01, 2006
hello. Labels: crew
guess woot. cc has their frist track recorded. yup. its up at BrandNewFeeling's & Crimson's myspace account. hope you guys love that song owaites! next song will be CC's very own Uniquely Met! yuppetty.
BNF BABY !!
CC's own MYSPACE acc is up too.. Do add! (=
LOVE
;
