Hey.
Yesterday, I went out with Syugah & Fatal. Before I went our to meet em, my mum was cross.Well, she is sick and yet her daughter instead of staying home to look after her, goes out with her frens. That point, I knew tt my day is not going to turn out the way I want it to. I know things are going to go wrong.
Firstly, I met Syugah and we went to send her minus 1 beat to KHL Building at Pasir Rits Loyang Dr. Then we went to Bedok to meet Fatal and his 2 cousins. Akilah and dunnoh who. We then proceeded to town, to makan. We stopped at Somerset. But then Syugah was pissed because me and Fatal kept bragging about our late night conversation, she wasn't in the convo so she doesn't know a thing we were talking about and she got pissed and decided to go home. She brisked walk all the way to Orchad MRT station and then decided to change her mind and apologised. But when we reached Far East, she burst out crying bcoz of *smth* and then we had to walk back to Cineleisure coz its embarrasing for Syugah to eat at Far East after the bunch of ppl seeing her tears. So then we walked back. But then Fatal cousin was no where in sight. SO WHAT. LOLs.
Then after eating at KFC, we went to walk2 at Heeren, and I started to be emotional and being so egoistic.
That Asyraf lahH!! uRgh! keep thinking bout tt guy. haiiz.
Hhm. i gtg now. tekaiire.
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Hey. Now, this is just gon come out like the other time.
Haiiz. Truth hurts but thanks Fatal fo telling me. Thanks Syugah fo bein der. with ur words of encouragement. LOLs. Thought I will never get over THAT guy. Only my ex can replace him. My dear Asyraf.
Ok, while I was talking to Fatal on my cellphone last 3 days ago(05-06) around 1.10am. My home phone rang. I thought, who could possibly be calling at such an hour? If anyone wants to look for me or my brother, they would've called our cell. I picked up, HE was looking for me. I didn't recognize his voice as it was deeper than the last time we talked before, 8 months ago. When he, so called, revealed himself. I almost drop dead. That morning Fatal told me THAT guy had someone in heart. I was worried I won't be able to get over him; And I told Syugah that only Asyraf can do the magic. And BOOM! he called me back. i tried countless times calling him but I couldn't get thru as he changed his number. I was so happy that I had to put down the phone with Fatal so that me & Asyraf could do some catching up together. After all, its been 8 months.
We chat for 2 hours and I finally felt sleepy and decided to call it a night. Hoping that the next night(06-06), we'll have the nocturnal conversation again. BUT, unfortunately, he was sleepy. So, we didn't really talked.
Followed by the next day(07-06), we didn't msg each other AT ALL. We didn't talk on the phone. Once again he msgd me saying he got soccer training tmr in he morning and he needed to sleep. Was he avoiding me? I sneaked to my brother's room and text Asyraf a msg using my brother's phone as my prepaid LOW! Urggh.
Till now, at this moment. He hasn't called nor msg.
I don't know why but somehow, I just can't erase him from my memory. The times we spent and shared together is much stronger than I thought.
Its been so long since I stared into his eyes and founf myself needing a compass and a map. I was lost everytime I look into his gaze. Words couldn't combine to express how much I still love him. Other guys are nice, understanding and almost everything alike Asyraf but I just don't feel the spark. If you were to ask do I still love him. I'll say, "Still and forever" ...
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