You’re nowhere near who I thought you were at all, Not the person who cared, or even caught my fall.You took my love for granted, never really cared for me, I thought you were special, but now I’m here to bleed.I see you're a joke, but I assumed you were so much more, From what I’ve saw from you today, you're far from mature.
Self harm was a last resort, and I was left with no control, I’ve had to hide my wounds and prevent my tears that roll.I’m ashamed to say that you've hurt me to this extent; I’ve tried to be stronger, but the pain is too intense. I thought you'd be different from the other guys, That you'd never hurt me, but every word was just a lie.
You told me that you wouldn't dream of ever hurting me, I tried to keep my feelings solitude, hoping you would see.Wishing one day you'd realise that we were meant to be.But I had to know the truth, grew the courage to be upfront, Then when I tried to speak, you couldn't of been more blunt."What happened between us we used to be so great?""You wanted something serious and I just wanted fun"
So I mentioned how you'd changed, before we'd even split, You went offline in arrogance and this is what it did:I hit the walls as tears fell stronger than the day i left you.I grabbed a knife that was too blunt to even make me bleed.So I took a compass and drew it hard into my skin, The blood began to flow, once again my pain you did win.
Now that I have realised, I no longer want you back, Although I still have feelings, I’ll never get you back.I thought you'd be mature to speak of what we had before,But a month down the line, you chose to forget and ignore.I don't need a 'boy' like you, even if my feelings do change, This time I won't give up again, this time I’ll take the reign.
I hope you'll make mistakes and realise what you've done, Hope you'll learn a lesson, get hurt and be outdone.I no longer fear about who you may want or be with next, Because I’ll no you either lied to me or you just want sex.It’s time to turn my back, tread each day without you here, I’ll show you I don't rely on you, and that I will make clear.
I'll take each step rising higher than you could ever be, I will not speak one word to your face, just for you to see.That I don't need you beside me, for me to survive this life, But now I have the scars to come, I’ll no longer use the knife.Although I loved, hated and cared without you knowing, When I'm strong and sturdy, it'll be the strength that I’ll be showing. XoXo Serenade
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