eLoRx! Well, here is another update. This is just a simple update I'm writing 'coz I'm finally getting over Ashik. I met his friend yesterdae and i felt realli sorry coz i was telling him things he realli need not noe...I felt liek i was pastering him all along since 23rd Jan! Sorry!! Well, the song being played is just for ya'll to noe that I'M THROUGH WITH HIM!!!
Heres what happened if you guys wanna noe...
//* o2nd January 2oo5. The day i remembered being somebody's angel. Waited for him at Boon Lay Int at 12.30pm and he arrived with his bud. I juz cant stop feeling happy cause his mine. He was the first whom i actually had a serious releationship with. I held him tight in my arms and wishing he'll always be the one. Time flies, a weeks past...and he started to act the way i never wanted him too. Ignoring me, talking shit->and i realli mean shit! Crap shit! I called him once a day and talked to him for a few secs, the longest one wud realli shock dha heck outta u..the longest talk on the phone was 51secs...yarpx..five-one...51 SECONDS! nt minutes! I felt realli lost, did i do something wrong? No, i did not! I even told him once that he cud me aside, in low high tides...i told him i will abide! Of coz, no guy wud listen to that line! Suddenly, one day...a girl who called herself 'LiL Cuttie' from Frenster msg-ed me asking me to tell AShik to fark off...and bla3 urh...So, i was starting to suspect something was realli wrong. I called him up the next day, 23rd Jan - a Sunday..and wanted to meet him after not meeting him for dha last 5 days! He said he has got homework and some common test revision to do. I was foolish enuf to believe that and i give in. That was at 1pm or so....after 4hrs, i called him agen and his mum said, he went out for breakdancing....I didnt at all felt cheated; i started to think positive ever since i got to be with him. Its liek i cant breathe the way i normally do wen i'm with him. I thought he went out after revising his work for a little fun with his buddys....Den after afew hours, He called muh house askin fer muh handphone number; (he cant even remember?) so, i gave him and he sms-ed me saying; "U...sorry to tell you that i wanna break up, i wanna study, im listening to muh teacher's advice..sorry, i've give this a deep thought" After reading that msg my blood stopped rushing, my heart stopped beating, my breath felt cold and my whole body felt numb. I was stuck at the spot i was at, tears rolling down my cheeck without traffic, eyes went red and my nose wet, i drop myself on the floor with the phone in my hand; thinking about what mistake i did that made him give up on me. Did i not give him enuf care? Did i not try to make things better? Did i not try to be patient with him? Did i not understand him? All those thoughts were haunting me from then till now. I couldnt help but thinking of him but now, at this moment. I realise that i'm being a fool. Why muz i think and still love somebody who actually tore half my world apart? They dont deserve it! I'm one who is suppose to be treated better than the wae he treated me. After he is gone, now i can breathe...the wae i normally do. So heres just the words i want to tell you, 'Thank You!'
XoXo - aRa NaD
//*PiZoWt*\((Song played along with this post :: "Since U've Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson"))
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