Hey, not really feeling too good. Really bummed out, farked up and pissed off. Dont even have the mood to find a song that goes with this post. Lemme just shoot out what happened. If you dun udnerstand comment it aitex? I'll explain dha next time i update,
//*Sakinah, Aisyah, Syahidah...3 bez ghurls i hang ard since last year in school. Shared ol our probs together....but this year...dere are treating me with the shittiest, crappiest treatment a fren cn ever receive...even tho they do lend me some change, da wae dey talk to me is different. Urh..no mood urh...nex time i update agen lar..soz!
xoxo ara nad
pzowt+
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Hey! Here is the lyrics to the song playing - "Over by Lindsay Lohan". A dedication for my brother on behalf of his ex girlfren... I watched the walls around me crumble
But it's not like I won't build them up again
So here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts, cause it will end
My tears are turning into time I've wasted
Trying to find a reason for goodbye
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I'm dreamin' bout you
Honestly, tell me that it's over
Cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And I'll be the first to go
Don't want to be the last to know
I won't be the one to chase you
But at the same time
You're the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel, the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time I've wasted
Trying to find a reason for goodbye
I can’t live without you
Can’t breathe without you
I’m dreamin' bout you
Honestly, tell me that it’s over
Cause if the world is spinning and I’m still living
It won't be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And I’ll be the first to go, yeah, I’ll be the first to go
Don’t want to be the last to know (over, over, over)
My tears are turning into time I’ve wasted
Trying to find a reason for goodbye
I can’t live without you
Can’t breathe without you
I’m dreamin' bout you
Honestly, tell me that it’s over
Cause if the world is spinning and I’m still living
It won't be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over
Tell me that it's over, over
Honestly tell me, honestly tell me
Don't tell me it's over
Don't tell me it's over
* wheeps. *
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Tuesday, February 22, 2005
Hey!! Well, Just a simple update again... The song together with this post is "Lindsay Lohan - That Girl". Well, I've notice some changes in myself. So did my family and friends. Not am i saying im turning negatively bad...but I'm starting to see the brightness of life. I've never ever once said to myself "Oh, i love myself" when i look in the mirror in the past. But now, my friends, my family and especially Myztikal have made me do that. I'm thankful to them and to myself too. Not forgetting Fahmi. The god-brother who was there to listen to my sorrows and actually tried his best to cheer me up. Even tho we do quarrel lots of time. We still care about each other! Here is what happen to me after knowing myself from myself..geddit? =)
//*Sara Nadiah, a simple teenage ghurl who always thinks that life is juz a quest given to us. A dull, boring, sickening thing to be in. That was in the past. As she attend primary school and started having friends but bad company ones.....those feelings changed to worst... Luckily, a teacher; Mdm Niryanty made her realise her quality as a student leader in her and she changed her ways. Time goes by and she made her way to secondary school, a school far from her primary school. Queensway. Strict discipline but flexible teachers and peers. Her friends were brilliant! She enjoyed her time there but she realli misses the time she had wen she was with Mdm Niryanty and her primary 6 graduating class form teacher, Mrs Hairmann...
//*Miss you both!!!
//* Although her primary sch frens are seperated from her by the dispersion into different schools, Sara and her friends still keep in contact. Calling each other and meeting at her place was lots of fun!! Now, Sara is a much more open minded and creative...she thinks about all possibilites of life and her commitment towards changing herself is 100% and her commitment to make others happy is 110%...She never let her loved ones groan in pain as she grow. She tries her best to make every moment in life a memorable one including visiting the washroom...-(actually there was a farnie and memorable incident that happen..tell ya'll next time) - This teenager is simply a teen who puts others before self and put self before actions. For actions do have consequences...=)
//* A little thank you to all those who have changed my life for the better and also for the worst cause I learnt from every mistake i make. I once had a dream the life I'm having now. Thanks for making that dream a reality!! Muackx!!!
XoXo aRa NaD
++PzOwT!++
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Sunday, February 20, 2005
Hey!! Welcum again, yarps...new song. I try to associate every post with a significant song. Something happened in muh life today and I cant quite believe it. After a whole day of fighting with my emo and getting fumed up with muh younger brothers always annoying me, plus dha lost of muh ez-link, something so great you can't simply put it in correct words happen. Its not an event that makes u cry out your tears cause you're sad or you're scared. Its an event that allow tears to flow against your cheeck and you feel fear gone, only you and your inner child communicates and your you hear your heart actually talking to you..Here is a little bit about muh day,
//*Have you checked out muh fren called Myztikal's Blog? Well, if you haven't later den check out..now you read muhaine ferst! =) This Myztikal, a fren, a close companion, muh counsellor, my elder one whom i treat with the utmost respect and concern...One who i will continue to look up too no matter what. If he does anything wrong, I'm not treating him differently. This vow i made is because I believe nobodys perfect. He told me once that he treats me with respect and he loves me as a sister and i'm blessed enuf. How can I ever possibly repay him? He has actually open my mind to think thru about everything that I do, he made me realise that my inner-someone isnt just a girl but a girl with highly respected dreams and he also made me feel the way I've longed to feel. Loved by a brother. Even tho yes, i do have a bloodbrother but you gotta understand that the gap between us is only 2 years. His thoughts and mine are never the same for he never think out the outcome of an action (Sorry, if you're offended). Its hard for me to communicate with my blood brother. And its been a few months since i last got his concern. Myztikal, just want you to know i'm more then blessed that you've entered one of the chapters in my life. You've create a climax that no girl like me can feel blessed. I was once living in dark cell with just the love from my parents and words of encouragement from muh besties but now, ever since you've unlock the cell, I'm free to see the greenery of nature, blue sky above me even wen its raining, happy faces everywhere even in the mirror. =D
//*Just want you to know that having someone who treats me the wae I ought to be treated and one who understands me and stand up to his rights just for me is the best thing I can ever possibly receive. On muh birthday, i dont want anything from you....Just your voice saying "Happy Birthday" to me is more than enuf. I'm in love with myself eversince you wake me up. There are so many things that seem small to you but huge to me. The impact is liek you giving me a new mind. Expressing muh feelings in songs has never been an easy task for me...and its not now either but its easier now compared to last time. All your words, wen i think about it as i end my day...It reflects on who I want to be, who i will be and what i will be. Thanks for everything that you've done. All you commitment can never be repayed by me enuf. All i can do is pray to Allah that you're in the pink of health and may He bless you with best wishes and gud luck in everything you do. I'm lost of words to describe how trully precious you are to me, I realli dream and not wish that you will always be there for me when i need you. For wishes gets me no where but dreams keeps me goin'.
//Thanks Myztikal!!!
XoXo - aRa NaD
++PiZoWt!++
((Song played along with this post :: "Pieces Of Me - Ashlee Simpson"))
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Saturday, February 19, 2005
eLoRx! Well, here is another update. This is just a simple update I'm writing 'coz I'm finally getting over Ashik. I met his friend yesterdae and i felt realli sorry coz i was telling him things he realli need not noe...I felt liek i was pastering him all along since 23rd Jan! Sorry!! Well, the song being played is just for ya'll to noe that I'M THROUGH WITH HIM!!!
Heres what happened if you guys wanna noe...
//* o2nd January 2oo5. The day i remembered being somebody's angel. Waited for him at Boon Lay Int at 12.30pm and he arrived with his bud. I juz cant stop feeling happy cause his mine. He was the first whom i actually had a serious releationship with. I held him tight in my arms and wishing he'll always be the one. Time flies, a weeks past...and he started to act the way i never wanted him too. Ignoring me, talking shit->and i realli mean shit! Crap shit! I called him once a day and talked to him for a few secs, the longest one wud realli shock dha heck outta u..the longest talk on the phone was 51secs...yarpx..five-one...51 SECONDS! nt minutes! I felt realli lost, did i do something wrong? No, i did not! I even told him once that he cud me aside, in low high tides...i told him i will abide! Of coz, no guy wud listen to that line! Suddenly, one day...a girl who called herself 'LiL Cuttie' from Frenster msg-ed me asking me to tell AShik to fark off...and bla3 urh...So, i was starting to suspect something was realli wrong. I called him up the next day, 23rd Jan - a Sunday..and wanted to meet him after not meeting him for dha last 5 days! He said he has got homework and some common test revision to do. I was foolish enuf to believe that and i give in. That was at 1pm or so....after 4hrs, i called him agen and his mum said, he went out for breakdancing....I didnt at all felt cheated; i started to think positive ever since i got to be with him. Its liek i cant breathe the way i normally do wen i'm with him. I thought he went out after revising his work for a little fun with his buddys....Den after afew hours, He called muh house askin fer muh handphone number; (he cant even remember?) so, i gave him and he sms-ed me saying; "U...sorry to tell you that i wanna break up, i wanna study, im listening to muh teacher's advice..sorry, i've give this a deep thought" After reading that msg my blood stopped rushing, my heart stopped beating, my breath felt cold and my whole body felt numb. I was stuck at the spot i was at, tears rolling down my cheeck without traffic, eyes went red and my nose wet, i drop myself on the floor with the phone in my hand; thinking about what mistake i did that made him give up on me. Did i not give him enuf care? Did i not try to make things better? Did i not try to be patient with him? Did i not understand him? All those thoughts were haunting me from then till now. I couldnt help but thinking of him but now, at this moment. I realise that i'm being a fool. Why muz i think and still love somebody who actually tore half my world apart? They dont deserve it! I'm one who is suppose to be treated better than the wae he treated me. After he is gone, now i can breathe...the wae i normally do. So heres just the words i want to tell you, 'Thank You!'
XoXo - aRa NaD
//*PiZoWt*\((Song played along with this post :: "Since U've Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson"))
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Thursday, February 17, 2005
Hey! Well, this is dha ferst layout fer muh blog..comment on it aite? Dun ferget to tag kayz?..Well, lemme juz simply tell yall bout muh dae. First of all, lemme wish muh blood-brother; "Happy 16th Birthday BrO!!!!!" Yarpx, its his birthday today.
//*About muh day..woke up early today at around 5+am...took muh morning bathe and switch this computer on and edit dha blog template but i didnt have enuf time to update earlier on so im doin it now. eHeHeKx! Got dha background music on; Currently playing "Sunshine" Jojo. You can turn it off if you find dha song irritating or anythin' annoying. Well, lets continue about muh daY; got ready fer school and then chat with Myztikal who eventually didnt slept dha whole nite thru..Gosh! tsk3..den ard 06.10am i gotta chao fer school...So, switch dha internet shut and woke muh parents up and then get out of dha house. and.........realise that I LOST MUH EZ-LINK CARD!!! aRgH!!!!!!! DamMiT!!! *groans all dha wae* took dha bus to school and everything went awfully bad in school...English period was a total bummer! A friend got class canning and i realli2 cant bare to see it happening...dha sound of it juz scares dha hibijings outa me..!! Seriously! Then followed by Language class, which was dha greatest period of dha day..Just do sum work then we get to chill ard and chat...bla3....After school; went home and got freaked out when i saw muh two siblings not in school but actually messing muh room!!! So tired, i didnt realli screamed at 'em to get thier ass out of there...but i actually just gave em a cold stare and luckily they understand wad i was trying to sae...Phew! save muh energy..Chill fer a bout an hour den went for a cold nice bathe and watch a little of TV while having my noon-meal...Then I started searching high and low for dha stoopid card....BUmmer! I didnt find it...How wonderfooooooL!! Got so farked up, i decided to do something that will at least chill me down and do sum useful work...So, i switch on dha internet and started surfing it...So, here i am updating and trying to calm muhself dwn...
//*Did you actually really read all of those words i typed out? Wow! Great...But my dae aint getting any better...I've got a night class today with muh dad...Every Thursday!! and it actually starts at 2030hrs - 2230hrs...Well, guess this will be enough of updation for dha dae...You wont read a whole junk that doesnt have anything to do withchu at all would you? haha!! Okiez, signing off,
XoXo - aRa NaD++PiZoWt!++
((Song played along with this post :: "Sunshine by JoJo"))
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Saturday, February 05, 2005
++/>eLoRx!!!! Here is ma grand opening of ma new blogspot speech.
Thanks to ya'll that have given me strength and encouragement to stand up tall when I'm trying to get over the stress after a lost of somebody in ma life. Thankx!! To you dha ones who have just got to know me, add me aT MSN aitex? [[nad241@hotmail.com]]*P.S:: Hackers, Virus-Users aint welcuM!!*
I'm here just to fill up ma time daily. Usually, I complete ma house-chores, eat and watch a little of tele then use dha phone. When I'm using the computer, I'll check my 'Friendster', 'Hotmail', 'MSN'. For now, I gtg....i'll update the next time i'm free!!
XoXo aRa NaD--
//++PiZoWt!++\\
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